Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Contentment and The Competitor

Do you ever think to yourself, "If I win a race, I'll be happy."?

Or, "I can PR and then I'll be happy."

Maybe you are just a little more subtle than that... so while you are racing, you think to yourself, "If I can just beat the girl in that pink sparkle skirt..."

It could also be that you just want to cross the finish line after X amount of miles.
Sometimes it can be a bit like Aesop's dog-- except it's that PR you are after. If I get too greedy, I start back at speed work too soon after a hard race and wind up with a mysterious injury.
And even if you aren't into racing, maybe you care about recording data in a running log. Even training can become competitive. I personally try NOT to get into that kind of competition.

I am here to promise you that NO matter how GREAT that race goes, who you beat, how fast you finished it, or how far it was, there will ALWAYS be
       faster

               farther

                    and ...    more challenging


So, where do you find contentment?

Where does anyone find happiness in a target that is constantly moving? 

Where is that perfect place to rest in your ability and effort? 

These are thoughts I struggle with. But to be very honest, I don't struggle with them much during a race, when I am simply trying to finish ahead of the next person. (Physically maybe, but not mentally.) You'll never catch me thinking "Oh, I should let her finish before me".

It's afterwards that I look back over the performance and analyze, critique and evaluate if I did my best, and decide if I can be content with what transpired.

But if I am ever content with my performance, it's not for long. That's how I am wired.  Actually, I think that's how ALL humans are wired, especially competitive-runner-women.
Does the love of competition conflict with living a godly life? I am not sure.


The Bible says that we should aim for contentment.
1Timothy 6: But godliness with contentment is great gain.
The Bible also gives direction to how to find contentment.
Philippians 4:12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
We all have a longing for eternity that is unquenchable. This longing is the source of all our striving, and desire for contentment. It can only truly be quenched when we are at one with the Lord.  
Ecclesiastes 3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 
It doesn't seem possible to be fully at-one with the Lord (and complete) at all times here on earth.  So in essence- as long as we are running on this side of heaven, we will not find a permanent state of contentment. The BEST we can do is to find satisfaction in our efforts and spend time with the Lord:
- in prayer/communication with him
-or actively worshiping him (music, etc..)
-or (and this is the part I struggle with) by modeling ourselves to be more like Him, loving and serving others and holding others needs above our own. Self-sacrifice.
I look to examples like Jeff Galloway and Eric Liddell for inspiration. They will be remembered not simply for their great athletic ability, but for making a choice to invest themselves into others. I believe they understood where to find true and lasting contentment.

 Galloway, coach and motivational speaker once said in an interview with marathontalk.com that a turning point for his life was when he chose to pace another runner for a spot on the Olympic team.  At trials, he dropped out of a race he might have qualified in. Since then, he has spent the better portion of his life putting his skills and life experience into helping others.

 Liddell is best known for his choosing not to race his specialty on the sabbath, but then going on to Olympic victory in a distance he was not trained for. What is brushed over in the movie Chariots of Fire, is that he left his career as a runner to serve as a missionary in China during WWII and died in a Japanese camp after sharing the gospel.

It's time to begin a new chapter in my running story.

It's a chapter full of excitement and heartbreak, wins and losses, LOTS of growth. Maybe even some contentment. :) I am taking some new risks where the reward will be to see others find success.
Hope to do some running soon with this neighbor: a go-getter, and a grade school 1500M district champion.
 The tops of my shoes are going to get dirty.  But that's a good thing. It means I am spending more time in prayer. With His help, all things are possible.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Recent Events in Photos

It's been tough to get on here and write lately, but LIFE is still happening all around me.
 Here's a run-down of the last 2 or so weeks. I promise to write a bit more next time. :)
Rexius trail, Eugene- Trail recovery run with lots of stopping and stretching.



 Heading off the trail to a nearby residential area, only to discover an adult kick ball game. I had no idea that this was a new popular sport. Or maybe it's only popular in Eugene. ? Anyhow, it's proof I should crawl out of the cave now and then.

***

Heading up to the park we made a short stop at Pre's rock. I grew up in Eugene, but had never seen it before. If you didn't already know much about Pre - here's a little info about him, our local legend.

Prefontaine was an aggressive runner, insisting on going out hard and not relinquishing leads. He was quoted as saying, "No one will ever win a 5,000 meter by running an easy two miles. Not against me." He would later state, "I am going to work so that it's a pure guts race. In the end, if it is, I'm the only one that can win it".

On May 30, 1975, returning from a party, after dropping off friend and distance champion Frank Shorter, Prefontaine was driving down Skyline Boulevard, east of the University of Oregon campus near Hendricks Park when, for unknown reasons, his orange 1973 MGB convertible swerved into a rock wall and flipped. The overturned car trapped Prefontaine underneath it. The first witness on the scene, a nearby resident, ran outside and found Prefontaine flat on his back, still alive but pinned beneath the wreck. After trying and failing to lift the vehicle, the bystander ran to get help. By the time he returned with others, the weight of the car had crushed Prefontaine's chest, killing him.
Prefontaine is buried at Sunset Memorial Park in his hometown, Coos Bay, OR
(source: wikipedia)


Mom and I went to Hendrick's park for Mother's day, and it was in bloom.
Above, the view of Skinner's Butte and downtown Eugene.








After the walk and dinner, I went to catch the end of the Twilight meet at University of Oregon.

Hayward field with temporary new bleachers to accommodate the Olympic trials.

Women's 1,2,3 in the second heat of the 800M

Fast ladies changing room!

Line up for the 3K. Andrew Wheating on the left- 


Wheating steps off the track after 6 laps (pacing maybe?- or just a fast training run?), and Jordan Mcnamara finishes as the winner!
***

PROUD mommy moments these last two weeks, as my oldest decides to ride his bike without help. It's been a struggle to get him to do it as we live on a gravel area and that makes it bumpy and hard to start. We took it to a widened area on the paved road and wa-lah. He's riding! 
Now he will not get left behind when his cousins get here for the summer :)
***

Coming up soon: 
  • Attempt(s) to establish a max heart rate and what I plan to do with it
  • Training plans
  • Some thoughts on contentment

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Recover, Rebuild, Refocus and Return to Running

What's the best way to recover from a marathon? Everyone is different, but I like to start by eating.
      As
          much
         as
             I
              can.
(after the feelings of nausea go away!)

A few of us were able to meet for a post race meal at a local pizza place.

I won't lie here. The venue was chosen, not for the food, but for the fact that I could expect my kids to play in the ball pit for a while. Selfish? Maybe...

We got to eat, though! And talk about everything possibly race related.


Julie and I caught up with each other, while her kiddos and mine battled it out in the padded room. This lady got a huge PR the day after a 50 mile bike ride. Ha! How's that for tapering?


I really enjoyed meeting up with those who could make it. Paul was able to beat his "A" goal by about a minute. He gave me the scoop on CIM and a little comparison to Eugene.
His blog is geared towards stats and race training science. He might obsess over numbers more than I do!

Notice our race T shirts? The Eugene Marathon T shirt is officially the BEST race T shirt I have now. Love the fit and the design!

We missed the lovely Tasha... :(  she came and ate before any of us could get there! So here's an expo photo instead.


Amanda showed up a little late. I have NO idea what we were doing here, but she sure knows how to party!

Yeah, I am running...but it ain't pretty~

What has my return to running been like?
Not as easy as I expected..... My quads came around in about two   five days, my right arm and shoulder (?) in 2 days, but my lower legs were thrashed post race. How is that possible with such a low Vo2 max? There are a few reasons I believe:
  • After my knee injury (I believe now that it was quadriceps tendinitis, and maybe a micro tear) I stopped doing any weight lifting.
  • At the same time, my schedule also moved away from interval (5k) paced training and into just threshold, marathon pace and strides (1mile race pace, short bursts) for speed work. I didn't keep up well with the strides because I was concerned about re-injury.
  • I ran more on-toe in this marathon than I have in the past.  
Here's the rundown since April 29th 
  • Sun: Race day
  • Mon: Nothing
  • Tues: Nothing but push ups and sit-ups
  • Wednesday: Sore still , walking around the house, soreness gone by the PM. Wanted to run, but did nothing but push ups and sit-ups.
  • Thursday:  All soreness was gone in walking. Tried running. I got about 20 yards and came back in. I had fully expected to run without problems.  Both soleus muscles, calves and front tibialis muscles were still very sore with running.
  • Friday: Biked for about a hour. Kept to under 80% max HR (weights)
  • Saturday: running on bark, 5 miles (very broken up with some walking and stretching)
Week 2 (so far)
  • Sunday: ran for a whopping 3 miles (still sore, but no walking). 
  • Monday: I rode my bike for an hour, 80% max HR or less (weights)
  • Tuesday: I ran 8 slow, fatigued, miles 
  • Wednesday: 8 easy miles again, but feeling a bit more pep in my step. Didn't feel fatigue until about 5-6 miles. (weights)
And now, it's time to refocus!

I have really enjoyed the recovery period, but I am more excited to get back to racing this time than after Boston last year. The question is- what should I be training for? Should I use my marathon fitness to try to improve my time in another full, or is that too risky? I am looking at a potential race on June 9th, and would want to get a PR.

Here is some more about that race: Tiny race (less than a hundred people), fairly cheap race, probably with a cooler start than Eugene.  Starts at around 2200 ft and goes to about 3200 ft above sea level and I live at 200ft. Race is about 3 hours from me. Training would be with Pfitz's back-to-back plan..
I could wait until December to race another full, but it would cost more money to do one then- 10 hours away from me.

On the other hand... It would be a lot of fun to get back to some intense workouts, and start chipping away at my 5k and 10k times!

What do you think? Should I try for a second full or get back to speed and short races?


    Wednesday, May 2, 2012

    Eugene Marathon* full report

    When I arrived at the Eugene Marathon, Sunday (about an hour before the race), I was in a pretty serious mood. That quickly dissolved as the very first song that I heard on the loud speakers playing went,
     "I Believe in Miracles...since you came along....You sexy thing.

    What a start to a race day!

    I hit the port-a-john lines wearing a long sleeve top and gloves I planned to toss after a mile or two in the race. After that, I went to the gear drop and ran into Julie on the way. We checked our stuff and visited briefly before parting ways. Then I ran into another friend I met at races, Emily, and we decided to do a little warm-up together. I always like to see a face I know before a race and chat- it cuts the tension.

    After warming up for maybe 7 minutes, I found my place in corral A, right next to the 3:15 pacer. My goal was to start with the pace group, be conservative, and hopefully move up if I felt good. It seemed like a good plan based on my training, the course, and the weather. I had modified my training plan after a bad cold and a minor knee injury, but reduced mileage and intensity got me to the starting line still feeling pretty well prepared.

    My bib was on my skirt and I had been wearing pants over it. Somewhere along the way I must have crunched the B tag chip, because only my start data showed up for people tracking me. Then it was taken out of the system.

    Miles 0-6
    7:25, 7:19, 7:26, 7:29, 7:27, 7:12
    The gun went off and we wound through some residential areas that were a little rolling, on some narrow streets with parked cars (not a big issue, if you were looking out). I saw Robbin on his hand cycle and gave him a shout, but he was swarmed with people on the packed street.

    There were some people cheering in groups here and there. I stayed in front of the pace group for a few miles, and was greatly encouraged to see my friend Tami, who drove from Elkton (an hour away), cheering at mile 2 and mile 6. It was an early morning drive for her- she is our pastor's wife and made it back to church for 10:00 service.

    We had an uphill climb for a mile and then a downhill back to 30th Ave. The water and Gatorade stations were well tended, but I was glad to have my fuel belt and 4 gels pinned on. My plan was to take half a gel at each of the 6 scheduled fueling times on my pace band.

    Miles 7-14
    7:17, 7:16, 7:27, 7:15, 7:11, 7:26, 7:28, 7:29
    The 3:15 group had caught up to me here and I ran with them for awhile. The road had some serious camber in some parts on this stretch. I felt a bit of stress on the outside of both my upper knees (not a previous injury area) and I told them, "I will deal with you later."

    Then we took the only big hill up and back by Hayward field. As we passed the water stations, I tried to remember to sip from my water bottles and take a shot, or part of a shot. A little bit later I was ahead of the pace group again and was making my way past the half marathon split to the Willamette river path. At this point I heard Amanda , her husband, and their kids by their hotel! It was a surprise cheer section for me.

     Feeling strong at mile 8.

    Near mile 11, as we were running through a residential part of Springfield, I felt the first sign of my calves wearing down. This was not a good indicator. I was going slower than my half marathon pace at mile 11 and feeling my calves already--(more thoughts on why in another post).

    I fought off some negative thoughts here and knew I should just try to maintain pace. Speeding up was not going to work. I tried to focus on various friends, praying for their healing. I hit mile 13 around 1:36 something ? Checking my pace band, this was just around the planned 3:15 pace and I hoped that I had what I needed to maintain. 

    Miles 15-21
    7:33, 7:23, 7:25, 7:24, 7:29, 7:19, 7:34
    An overpass over I-5 was the last real hill in the race- the rest of the course was virtually the same as the course I ran in 2010, and I could visualize it before i got to each part.
    I began to see some other runners start to struggle. A nice stranger-lady cheered for me, told me I looked STRONG and BEAUTIFUL. I wanted to put her in my fuel belt and carry her with me (someone else was already riding in there though).
    As I got back on the river path, and the familiar Pre trail, I knew it wouldn't be long until I saw Amanda again at our planned exchange. I tried to focus on that. My quads were starting to burn before mile 18 and my calves seemed to be holding steady.
    On the river trail between mile 18 and 19. Photo by my dad.

    Then I heard them...
    I thought I had a pretty good gap between myself and the 3:15 group, but they passed by me right before I traded bottles of water with Amanda and also saw my dad and Jon and the boys. I tried to catch them, but didn't like running in a pack at all. There were maybe 10 people tightly together, and the pacer mentioned that they had about 45 seconds banked. I gave them a little space and tried to keep up. There were a few ladies who were doing a great job in that group- but my legs were just getting harder and harder to keep going. The group slipped away from me after we crossed the Owasso bridge, but I tried to keep the balloons in sight. People had really thinned out at this point.

    Miles 22-26.2
    7:29, 7:49, 8:01, 8:15, 8:14 (Not sure about the last bit over 26 since I didn't turn my watch off)
    Seeing the pace group move out of reach sent my mind into a battle. My legs were done and I had lost my goal to beat 3:15.
    When a time goal is out of reach, it is easy for me to say, "This race is a failure." I haven't done a lot of B or C goal races. My form fell apart. It became tempting to walk. It hurt bad.
    I knew that it would just take longer to get to the finish line if I walked, so --I kept running.
    My thoughts were shifting between what (if anything) I had done wrong with training, to how to pull it together for my best possible time.

    Some of the thoughts in my last 3 miles were:
    • What the heck was I thinking? Why did I think a marathon was a good idea?
    • I bet I tapered too much.
    • I wonder if I needed more 20+ milers. 
    •  Give me a good 5K any day! 3.1 miles of sheer agony, but then it's over.
    • Maybe I could have put my twenty milers closer together.
    • I should have kept doing interval workouts.
    • Maybe this is the best you can do, even with a perfect training cycle.
    • Maybe I could have ran a faster marathon the day I did my 22 miler. 
    • I can keep doing this..In a little bit it will be over.
    • This is worse than having a baby...
    • No. No it isn't.
    • My watch says I am running 8:09, but my legs feel like this is a 12 minute mile. 
    • God, please keep my legs moving.
    • I hear cheering. For me. I have no idea who it is, but I hear them.
    My new goal was now to just keep going. Just keep going....And I was praying more. A lot more. I remembered Proverbs 16:9, and was talking to Jesus and telling him I know He directs my steps, regardless of my own plans. I wanted to glorify Him regardless of how the race went.

    As I entered Hayward field, I heard my dad first and then Jon and the boys. I tried to pick up the pace for the finish line with the gun time reading 3:18:06. My net time, after Bazu Sports reviewed the data (chip malfuntion), worked out to be 3:17:49.

    Of course I forgot to turn off my watch! I got my medal and headed for the medical/ice tent first. I just wanted to see if they had any ice-baths- simply out of curiosity. I didn't see any. But I got a couple of bags of ice. :)

    Talking with Tasha (Healthy Diva Blog) - super nice -and speedy.

    I grabbed some snacks and water and met my family in the reunion area. My kids were so excited to see me and my sister had come down from Portland for the day. I took my opportunity to get a few pictures since I might not see her again for a few months.

    My boys with some post-race snacks.

    Family and a childhood neighbor

    I can imagine the fun Jon had waiting for me with the boys :)
    My sister- so honored that she came down to watch.
    A few minutes later I found Julie and Ronda who had both PRd in the half marathon!

    Some thoughts
    • There is nothing like a marathon to remind you of how weak - and how strong- you really are. When I was at my weakest, He carried me. I am grateful to friends and family who let themselves be extensions of His love for me with prayers, messages, packages and as cheerleaders on the course.
    • Although I didn't meet my time goal, as I sit here, I am really VERY happy with a new PR. A PR is never a guarantee, and I was blessed with fantastic weather and a great day in Eugene. 
    • I am satisfied that I gave all I had for this race. Often times I will look back at a race and wonder if I could have executed the race any better. This one was well executed, I just didn't know how much to shoot for. And you can never really be certain of that until you are in the midst of the race.
    • The race organizers and volunteers did a fantastic job, all around.
    • I am really happy with how I fueled and hydrated for this race. It was totally worth wearing the fuel belt to have water when I needed it or wanted it. I am not a big drinker and it was cool. I probably drank about 16 oz of water, but that makes me think that in my previous two marathons I probably only drank 6 ounces.
    • This is only my third marathon and I still have SO much to learn. I wonder if I could improve my time in the full. There is really only one way to find out, but a person would have to be sick in the head to do that. ha!

    Monday, April 30, 2012

    3:18ish at Eugene, unofficial PR

    Something went wrong with my timing chip. Not seeing my time listed is testing my patience, but for now I have an unofficial PR! 3:18:07?

    Eugene Marathon 2012 was my 3rd marathon - There's something new to learn from each one.

    We had amazing race weather and some things went very right; other things need some work :) .

    I felt amazingly covered in prayer, love, and support from friends for this race. 

    Humbled by the distance again, but I am satisfied I gave all I had yesterday. God got me to the finish line.

    Full race report and post race photos coming soon!